wow. i had a really vivid dream which i was DAMN happy when i woke up, because it was a terribly bad dream. I am going to recount as much of it as i can.. it isn't particularly interesting but i just want to recount it. you can skip this entry if you are busy.
This entry isn't entertaining at all. It's just me recalling my dream. so you dont have to read it if you dont want to. here we go.
For some context, one of my worst fears in life is of being ignored/ostracised. ok perhaps 'fear' is a wrong word. but when i get ignored etc, i get super depressed. like super duper. really bad. It's like.. a soccer player breaking both legs. Or a bowler getting his thumb infected and needs to be wrapped with 10 layers of bandage. I get super sad.
Ok with that context in mind, let's get into the dream.
girls a and b are 2 girls that i know. I talk to girl a quite often abt stupid stuff, quite fun to talk to her. I won't reveal where they are from nor their identities. guy a is a good guy friend of mine. ditto.
We were all at some gathering.. and Girls a and b were together as usual. and being the usual 'affectionate' girls they are, they were touching each other. Like holding hands, talking, hands keep moving on each other's arms. I guess this is pretty normal for girls.
then after a while, girl a got up, then walked past me. then i 'tsktsked' as she passed. She turned at me inquisitively. 'so les', i said.
she pouts and stares at me. 'eh where got'
'yes lor. you all are damn sick'.
some more conversation was exchanged until it got fairly heated, i can't remember exactly what, until i said:
me: 'i even videoed you all lar. damn scandalous. i'm going to post on youtube'
girl A: 'wth?eh you better not'
me: too late. im going to spread your les behaviour. (i have no idea i said this i definitely wouldnt say this in real life. but then again, it's a dream. )
Girl A storms off, infuriated. she refuses to talk to me ever again.
after a while i realised my mistake. how stupid why would i go and post the video for what. i didnt even think i videoed anything, i said it out of angst. i went up to girl A to apologize.
She totally snubbed me.
I was damn sian, as i simply loathe being ignored. damn damn sian. the emotions was damn high. then i tried every way to get her to listen to me.
ok this part is damn weird and doesnt make sense, but a dota element came in. see ah, in dota you can 'disable' someone by stunning him with a spell. So i used some disables to stop Girl A from moving away while i tried to pacify her and get her to forgive me.
i tried damn hard. i kept trying. but she wouldn't. she just walked away and was still pissed.
i smsed her. alot of times. i kept apologizing but she just wouldnt even bother to reply. Then guy A comes along, and asked me what swrong. then he even help me sms her. but she refused to reply. she just daoed me.
then i dont know WHAT happened, but something happened or i said something i really can't remember, guy A got quite pissed with me too. then he ignored me completely.
Then it was pretty weird because i always hung out with him and several others. so like we still walked together, but we never walked next to each other. and he just kept avoiding me. like we are like poles of a magnet.
damn weird can! a guy doing this! but yea i felt terrible. now not just a girl but a guy daoing me.
i was feeling REALLY sian. like totally. like you spent 2 months putting together a giant model of some dinosaur then your dog smashed it into smithereens. like you studied like mad for a test and you got the lowest mark in class.
then... i woke up.
Whew.
ok if this post wasnt entertaining, i already told you it wouldn't be. just needed to get me off my chest.
i'm glad it was just a dream.
